Morning Pages: May 25th, 2020

Due to the coronavirus pandemic, the D.C. metro region has been in a state of lockdown. To alleviate fear and stress, my writer's group has put together a daily "morning pages" get-together on Zoom in order to touch base before starting the day. Here's some of my brief thoughts.

I have a giant thing of mini potatoes and I'm looking to cook them. Apparently, boiling things in water + baking soda, then putting them into an oven, is a highly underrated cooking strategy. Like this recipe or this one on oven-baked chicken wings, involve the use of some form of baking powder or baking soda. Which is interesting.

I don't know what to do about my weekends anymore, but I can't really relax or work during those days. Apparently, I just lay on my bed and watch my phone for the whole day, or my computer if I don't have my phone available. I think it's a combination of multiple things. I'm stressed out about my project and I want to get it done, and I'm still a good deals away from that. I put a lot of emotional investment into this project, and I'm scared that if it goes down a lot of that investment goes down as well. And I'm tired from the week in general and I guess I'm subconsciously figuring if I'm going to run out of steam, I should do so on Saturday and Sunday.

I guess one reason I keep trying to push myself is I know the truth doesn't care about my feelings. If my project isn't done, then it isn't done, period, and it doesn't matter how much effort I put into it or how I feel about the project one way or another.