Evening Pages: December 14th, 2020

Due to the coronavirus pandemic, I've been locking myself down until I think it's safe to go out again. To alleviate fear and stress, my writer's group has put together a daily "morning pages" get-together on Zoom in order to touch base before starting the day. Here's some of my brief thoughts.

Hmm, something new!


Bouncy little man.

So my investment in $LAZR is not doing so hot. Went up to $1500 gain, didn't sell. Went down to $750 loss, still not selling. I think I'm gonna wait until I at least break even, or two years for their go-to-market strategy to play out.

I think I stopped caring about that this weekend though, because I got sick. I think it was the stomach flu from something I ate, maybe Chinese takeout, but I managed to vomit a ton on Saturday just by drinking some water. It was horrible, and made even worse by the thought I might have COVID. Other people said it's probably not because I take the maximum amount of precautions I think anybody can realistically take, but I didn't really believe that. I don't think the virus cares what precautions you take if it manages to enter your system. I was licking salt on the hour, just checking whether my taste buds were still working. I also felt pretty murder-y, like I wanted to find the nearest Trump supporter and strangle them with my bare hands. A healthy person wants a million things. A sick person only wants one.

One nice thing I think I did was buy $100 worth of food for my friend working on a COVID floor in a hospital. The restaurant even wrote little messages of "thank you for your support" and stuff, which my friend conveyed via Messenger. Maybe in my mind it was more transactional, like if I wanted a hospital bed I could just say I was nice to one hospital worker and they'd give me one, rather than just being super rich and connected. I think my friend appreciated it. I think a lot of times I dance to the tune of my own drum. When everybody else was out on the balconies cheering medical workers and stuff, I was like meh. Now everybody is sick of COVID and I'm pitching in. I like to think I'm an anti-aliasing function for good things.